Jamilia's Blog!

During chemo, you're more tired than you've ever been.  It's like a cloud passing over the sun, and suddenly you're out.  You don't know how you'll answer the door when your groceries are delivered.  But you also find that you're stronger than you've ever been.  You're clear.  Your mortality is at optimal distance, not up so close that it obscures everything else, but close enough to give you depth perception.  Previously, it has taken you weeks, months, or years to discover the meaning of an experience.  Now it's instantaneous. 
 ~Melissa Bank


So, most of you know today is the big day!! I mean, I guess I wouldn't say, "big day".....it's not like I'm having major surgery....but I guess it's still the, "big day", Radiofrequency ablation sounds like a big deal....doesn't it?!?!?!? Say it outloud...seriously! Say It!!! (....................................................waiting for you to really say it outloud....................................) OK, it sounds like some craziness is about to go down, right?!?!? That's what everyone thinks at least, until you read up on it. This little PSA before we get to Jamilia, is strictly for all you people (you know who you are!!) who are freaking about the procedure....it's not that big of a deal! And, to prove it, Im including a link that will tell you allllllllllll about it.  You know you're interested :o) Now......I give you......Jamilia's blog <3

So, back in the 80's when I was young, my dad met this guy named Skip. He brought him over to our house around dinner time, and my mom gave him a plate. From then on, I think Skip came over at least three times a week around dinner time. Now, my mom was an awesome cook, so I'm not sure I'm convinced if Skip really enjoyed my dad's company, or if he really enjoyed those plates! Lol! Anyhow, Skip soon became Uncle Skip, and Uncle Skip had a beautiful, young family. There was his wife, Joan, who I thought was beautiful. As a child, I thought she was stern, but children always think adults who don't play are stern! Also, he had the most adorable two kids, Ebony and Skippy. They came in and they were quiet and they had these huge puppy dog eyes, and being that I was the youngest and cutest (if I must say so myself) I'm not sure how I felt. I thought, hmm, maybe it will be like having a little brother and sister. I can boss them around, and they'll be more than happy to do what I say. Wrong!!!! Skippy was the youngest, so it was pretty easy to sway him and get him to do things, but that Ebony, Never!! She was very matter-of-fact and she didn't take trash from anyone! I thought she was such a brat! After all, this was my chance to finally boss someone around, but nooooo, not Ebony!

So, as time passed, life changed, people grew up, grew apart, got busy, you know how things change. My mom passed away, I had my own family, and never really saw Uncle Skip, Aunt Joan, Ebony, or Skippy. There was no problem, it's just how things go. Fast forward to last summer.

I was about 7 months pregnant and I went to the store to buy some shoes to fit my swollen feet. I saw a guy that I thought I recognized. I noticed that he thought I looked familiar as well. I'm shy, but I reluctantly went over and asked if his name was Bones. He said yes and I told him who I was. Long story short, him, his wife and I ended up talking for about three hours. During that conversation, Uncle Skip came up. He told me that Ebony had, had Cancer, but that she was in remission.
I was shocked, devastated, hurt, worried, relieved that she was in remission, but most of all, I was sorry. She was my bratty little cousin, who I'd grown up with and loved. How could I have just lost contact to the point that I had no idea that she had gone through something so awful?

I went home, without shoes, trying not to cry. I got on Facebook, and searched out Skip. I found him first. Then Joan, and then Ebony! She doesn't know this, but seeing her on Facebook made my day! That meant to me that she was really ok! I've never really been around anyone with Cancer except my grandfather and he died two weeks after his diagnosis. I'd only seen movies and tv segments and specials about Cancer patients, so I was so happy to know that she was going to be okay!

I got to read all of her updates of how she was rebuilding her life, about her new job. I got to hear about the past and about what she'd been doing with her life. I was happy that she was a special Ed teacher, it meant that maybe she had grown up to be nice! Lol! Mainly, it made me feel that I could do something. I pray for her now and her family every night. I think about them constantly. I read her blogs     and I really love the fact that she approached CanSer, as she spells it, the same way she approached me as a kid. She wasn't going to let it bully her, control her, dictate to her what she was going to do. She was strong willed and matter-of-fact with it. She didn't pretend to be anything else. She stared it down, and she handled it!

I was afraid to reach out for a long time. I'd comment on posts and blogs, but that was all. I wasn't sure if I'd be welcomed back into her life. I'd write her long messages on FB and hit cancel and not send. I was the scared she'd say no. However, two weeks ago, I finally asked if I could come and see her and she totally said Yes! All I could think about was how dumb if was for me to not ask months ago! Im going to go see my little bratty girl very soon and join team FcanSer! I want to see as she says, CanSer get CanSer and die of CanSer! I want it to know and understand that Ebs is not the one to mess with!

Well, this is my two little cents, Ebony, I love you and the Fortune family will see you soon! My only question, "What kind of cake do you like?" 

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~BE NOT AFRAID, ONLY BELIEVE.~
Mark 5:36


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RADIOFREQUENCY ABLATION!
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